I finally chose my courses/timetable! I'm so excited! Tuition's being taken care of. Orientation week starts Sept 8th, and classes start the 9th.

I have:

Monday

10:10 am-12:00 pm
DIGI 1300-01
INTRO TO DIGITAL RESOURCES - Klassen

2:10 pm-5:00 pm
DRAW 1354-03
FIGURE DRAWING - McQuay

Tuesday
8:10 am-10:00 am
DESN 1308-03
DRAWING/VARIETY OF MEDIA - Rodgers

Wednesday
11:10 am-2:00 pm
DESF 1302-03
DESIGN STUDIO - Klassen

3:10 pm-6:00 pm
DESF 1303-03
FINE ART STUDIO - McQuay

Thursday
9:10 am-11:00 am
DESF 1304-01
IDEAS & IMAGES - Lecture with Klassen

Friday
11:10 am-2:00 pm
DRAW 1308-03
3D DESIGN STUDIO - Jordan

xD Monday, Wednesday and Fridays I'm planning on lunch/working out with April :D It's gonna be great. I ony need to purchase one book, for the lecture, and someone I know was in it last year and it selling it to me cheap..:DD

I'm very excited :P I get off on Tuesday and Thursday very early. 2 hour classes and then I'm home all day rofl.

oh! July 15th. Harry Potter. Half Blood Prince. Me, Gary. DRESSING UP...:D

No specific characters just 'cause it'll be too hard in such a short time. I can make House ties, and we have some dressy clothes for a pseudo school uniform. I'm stuck between Ravenclaw/Slytherin for me and Gryffindor/Ravenclaw for Gary.

Anyone have any suggestions? I'll need them quick because I need to get the fabric for the ties. I'll just paint the stripes on with acrylic. So, Red, Blue or Green? :P

<33! Anyone who wants to go with us, let me know! I'll make you a tie too :D

I really feel like drawing. Remus/Sirius anyway. I know it'll get me a shitload of hits on DA...if I rape-tag it."remus siruis marauders mwpp padfoot moony werewolf naruto boobs yaoi snape" lmfao Whaddaya think?

And anyone on here got requests? It's easier for me to draw if I have something in mind.

<3 Happy Canada Day, everyone. Even those of you who are American :P Because up here, we use the excuse of Independence Day to set of more fireworks and get drunk again.

Then again, Friday and Saturday are also a great excuse.

Ta-ta~

:D Sorry it's been forever.

Things are awesome, I'm going to college fo'sho in September. It's fucking exciting.

So exciting, I made a new mood theme featuring *Chibi-Rinku"'s art. :D It's Link!

Also made this:



:D

I should be in bed D:

<33

I've wanted to rant about this for quite a while.

My sister is quite the skank.

Consider this: I try to be a decent role model. I get good enough grades to scrape by with Honour Role every semester or so, I keep more than decent friends, I have a great boyfriend, no one I associate with has abused drugs or alcohol ('cept for a few friendly drinks..:D), et cetera.

Now, I don't know how she gets it in her head to have sex before she's even 16, and then less than a month later, again with a completely different boy.

Since Gary and I have been together (April 16, 2008 for you just tuning in), She has been with four boys and attempted relationships with many others.

There's a pattern, too.

Josh was numero Uno. He lasted maybe 6 months (which I was sort of happy about, since she was actually trying.) Oh, but then she started getting friendly with her bandmate David. All of a sudden, Josh wasn't so 'fun' and 'caring' anymore. She dumped him on his Prom night, still insisted on going with him (which he paid for), then proceeded to get with David within the week.

Numero Dos, David, is a good kid. Studied hard, etc, so I liked him too. He did a hell of a lot during the summer, so he didn't have a lot of spare time. Well, this wasn't good enough for her, so she started getting friendly with his best friends Henry and Sid. She dumped David and started getting really close to Sid but then he was all "LOL bros b4 hos", so, 'heartbroken' she flitted between classmates, flirting where and when she could get away with it.

Then she met Matthew in the school band and like a suction cup, she was on him. Except right after she met him, she went on a trip to Italy. Where she met *gasp* numero Quatro! (yes, in spanish, too.)

This was in November.

She started dating Matthew in December, although she got extremely close to Will in Italy. So she spent three months with Matthew and claimed he was "the One" (echoes from Senors Uno and Dos)

She slept with him, broke up with him because "we don't share the same ideas anymore" then started sleeping with Will. They decided not to make it official for a while because then it would be 'skanky'. Well, being fuck-buddies at 16 is a bit worse than that, kiddo.

So now they're one happy month together, and you know what they're talking about?

Kids.

She wants 3, and he's all for it, and they've named them. In all her 'creative writing', she goes by the pseudonym "Amanda Fortier". Oh, how witty.

He's drawn pictures of her pregnant for fuck's sake. They've talked in detail about their wedding.

I've made comments about how premature this is, and now she's going on about how I'm 'rude'. Will's jumped the bandwagon on "Jessica's an introverted dumbfuck" and "we hate her lol".

I'm just waiting for her to find her next victim before saying "I told you so".

By the way, I poked holes in her condoms, but then I thought that was wayyy to cruel and I'd have to live with that guilt, so I just tossed them instead. Hope she cries and whines.

See? I do have a heart.

Oh and before I get jumped for the "omg you're promoting unsafe sex somehow", nah, I'm not. I had a talk with her when I found out she was sleeping with Matt, and told her if she fucked up somehow, I'll mess up things more for her.

Ahh, I love being the bitch of an Older Sister. The hate is so rewarding sometimes.

Isn't it friggin adorable?!

:DD I love it!

I'm so happyyyyy right now... :3

Never thought I'd be in love for this long with anyone... Never thought he'd be the one I'd be happy to spend forever with.

And asdfghjkl;; look at us! We're flourishingggg~ xD

I feel retarded D:

Everything in my body hurts from track ._. My entire back and abs ache when I cough/sneeze/anything.

Owwwww...

I love everyone right now :D I have crackers and I love them too. :D

Anyone who hasn't, check out my Deviant art right NAO! <33 Right Hurr!

<3333

Hope everyone's lovely.

And why the hell doesn't anyone comment anymore? Lazy bitches.

<3! :D

How are you alll?

<3

that's all I can really put...tonight's been fun. :D

One year...it's one thing to say it, but another to try and imagine the number of days, and the number of adventures we've had in such a period of time.

I've made up my mind and nobody's going to be able to change it.

I love this man more than anything. More than any 'fad' I've been into before, more than any show or band I've fangirled over, more than my own well-being, which I only really consider so I can ensure I'll always be there for him...

To think, a year ago I was a foolish girl with foolish dreams, wanting to escape so I could 'find myself'.

Little did I know that what I was looking for was right beside me.

Gary, I love you so much. I'll never be able to thank you enough for falling in love with me. I don't know what I ever did to deserve you, but I'm so happy for it.

..I've already finished the first 50 letters ._.;; I just zoomed through them all, giggling and nearly in tears for the most part.

<3

Gah, I'm too tired to think of anything else to write.

Happy Anniversary, love.

Cheers to many more.

How the hell did one year pass by so quickly?

Gonna say an early "Happy Anniversary, darling", to mr_hunk <333 24 hours, early, but oh well.

Love you!!

:D

In other news, I haven't updated lately..D:

Track and field has started again and it's alright xD first meet is YorkU on the 25th. A Saturday. I know.

Also, our first canoe day is the 23rd, which I'm not too happy about because he's making us wear PFDs that have spiders all over them, and canoes that have spiders all IN them. And I just happened to choose a paddle with a crack in the neck, so I'll be getting splinters the whole time. Joy.

Two months left of school. Yay?

Two months left to pay 4000$ that I only have 1% of? Not Yay...

Gotta get my ass in gear...

But I'm not gonna get depressed about that now becaaauuusseee.it's gonna be our Anniversary soon :D and I'm fucking happy...

If he could barely stand a couple of months with the last one, and he's still "asdfghjkl;; happy" with me..? Jeez, we're gonna last forever.

<3!

Cheers to the future!

For my beloved Katherine, who can take a bit of friendly racism. <3

Don't mind the crappiness of the text, I did it in MSPaint.

Don't do what I did, kids.

Never EVER eat chocolate that's been under your bed for two years.

I found a Hershey's Kiss from Christmas 2006, in a plastic bag with some school stuff in it (that's how I figured the date).

D: My stomach hates me nowwww.


...

but it didn't look bad ;___;

Happy Birthday to meeeee

I saw a hawk outside today, ripping apart another bird.

Here!

So gorgeous..

Me, April and Kat hung out last night watching movies :D we also made sushi and it was so goooddd. Tamara and Cullen dropped by for some. Fun times!

I also got to meet Gary's sister Nerissa..who, it seemed, adored me..>>;

mmmm

No one's home right now..Amanda got driven to her friend's and the parents are out grocery shopping.

All alone D:

;___;

My heart beats.

Oh, how it beats.

With each thought of you it flutters, leaving me breathless. Like I've suddenly been doused with ice water.

I get similar feelings to my anxiety attacks. My heart thumps far too hard to be normal and my breath feels short and heavy. This time however, instead of panic, I'm dizzy with joy.

To think, for years I went unknowing. For years you watched me and I wasted my time living in my own fantasy world, being whimsical.

I never knew that your eyes were on me, rather than her. I never knew that it was me on your mind and in your dreams.

Already, in a mere month and a half...we will have been together for a year. A whole cycle of the seasons, and still you love me.

I couldn't believe how easy it was to speak to you that first day, when my heart was in my throat and my stomach was doing somersaults. But it was easy. We spoke, I fumbled with my words and acted stupid, but I relaxed when I noticed you did too.

It took me a couple of days to just hold my breath and ask you to hang out.

Those days at the Lake...They were the happiest I'd ever seen. I cried, we laughed, we talked and listened to each other. It was an instant connection.

That first week we were together..I was convinced I was dreaming.

Now, I know it's better than that.

Darling, I'm so happy with you. This whole time has just gotten better and better as we mature and grow closer to each other.

I can only hope to keep it this way. I have no doubts that our relationship will evolve, as we also will, but our emotions will remain steadfast.

I love you, and that will never change.

<3

I'm thinking...of starting a Radio Blog...

I know I don't regularly keep a journal, and while I'm writing, I forget a lot. When I'm speaking, however..I go on and on and on and eventually remember things. It's also good for relieving stress, I've found.

It's like..I'm venting to myself. I can listen over and hear how whiny I am or I can come up with answers to my problems..

I dunno.

I won't be making it available to public, just because it will be too much tard to handle.

What I mean by 'radio blog' is that I record myself speaking, kinda like a vlog without the video..>>; and then I store it on my computer. Or Upload it to something so it stays put.

I might link to funny entries with this journal, but otherwise it's a private thing.

So, good idea?..>>;

also, I'm gonna shamelessly plug my DeviantArt, for those who don't visit me often.

LostPariah's DeviantArt!

:D

It sucks being an impulsive person.

I got accepted into College!

Both that I applied to sent me acceptance letters. I know for my first year, going to Centennial will be worse for me financially...so I'll just have to accept Durham's offer, even though I think Centennial is better academically.

I just need to suck it in and press that 'accept' button though...I feel so strangely nervous about it. Almost as if by clicking the button, the gates swing shut and I'm trapped in it..@_@

Anyways...Happy Valentine's Day!

I've been happy lately, despite some stresses...

I have a cozy, warm home, a family, a school to go to, a boyfriend who loves me back, and friends who will be there for me. Could I ask for anything more?

Yeah, maybe a job to pay for college, but with the economy as it is now, I'm not too hopeful.

Anyways...I'm really hungry xD I think I'm gonna make some fudge! Omnom...

"You're the first, the last, and the constant thing on my mind everyday."

" You'll always be my baby."

You really know your way to my heart, don't you?

Almost a year has passed, and already it seems like I've spent eternity with you.

It's three months until our Anniversary... and I really can't wait. The only yearly thing I've every celebrated were birthdays and holidays. This is exciting..

Also, I'll be failing trying to keep a work-out schedule going until Track starts. I'm aiming for three months, just so it rounds off nicely. It'll also keep my mind occupied so I don't get too excited =P

Hopefully I won't fail too badly. I really badly want to get some strength to pad my shoulders and back. They're the areas that hurt the most.

Well...I'm gonna try to start up some stretching tonight..maybe write up a schedule and pin it to the degu cage so it's right there in my face xD


Nine months have come and gone, and I love you more than I ever have. Thank you for helping me better myself and get this far. I wouldn't have been able to do it without you.

I love you <3 Always. Muchmuch.

Rowan died today.

My degu, the one I've had for nearly years, slowly passed away last night. I hope it was peaceful.

It's not very fun, dragging yourself up out of bed, in a lot of back pain, annoyed about having to go back to school...and then finding your favourite pet stiff in a cage. Not the best way to start off a morning if you ask me.

I'll deary miss her. Even though April advised me to take the day off to 'grieve', I don't think it'll be of much use. We can't do anything with the body until after school and I don't want to sit around it for much longer. It's a little more than a bit upsetting.

I need to get ready for school, eat something, etc..

R.I.P

Agatha 23.01.05
Rowan 05.01.09

I know I don't update.

Today was epic. Gary's family actually gave me stuff for Christmas..I'm so putting the cards up in my room and crying tonight <3

I feel bad I wasn't able to give them much more...

So far best Christmas yet, even though we will barely get gifts tomorrow. I really don't care..it's been amazing thus far. I've found that I much prefer spending time with my family (-ies?:D), over receiving gifts...I love wrapping and giving to people. I like..demanded to wrap the gifts that Mom got for Gary lol.

I'm so happy he likes the boxers @_@ I was nervous about it. I always second-guess myself.

Anyhoo, I hope everyone enjoys themselves no matter what they celebrate, or what they're doing right now.

Go spend time with the people you love. You only have one life. Make the best of it <3

I love everyone right now :D

xoxo

Happy holidays!

Where to start?

I'm getting increasingly happier as the days pass. Christmas is coming quite soon, and I'm excited. My family isn't much for it, but I love it. We don't even have the tree up and it upsets me. My mother doesn't want to put it up at all. =/

Today marks the eight month I've been with Gary...<3 Such joyous months, too...

I've never spent this half of the year with someone. It seems my previous relationships didn't last until the colder weather. Even more reason for me to be happy~

Gary is able to deal with me in ways that no one else has ever been able to. How he can want to be with me every day is beyond me.

One thing I am incredibly excited about is Christmas Eve.

I get to spend the majority of it at Gary's. Now, I've heard that his mother is all Nazi about having people over on the holidays..but...she was the one that invited me o_o; And on top of that, I think I'm invited for New Year's Eve.

Am I made of win, or what?

How is it that I've managed to score such an awesome life?

I can't help but feel something will happen in the future though. Something bad. All this good is great, but there's always a balance.

It makes me worry...I'm feeling such immense happiness...so does that mean it will turn out immense sorrow?

I'll try not to stress over it, because I'm hoping it will be in the distant, unavoidable future.

Cheers to love <3 It's the only thing keeping me sane.

Am I the only one who thinks Twilight was a crappy book?
Am I the only one who thinks that the only time Robert Pattinson was EVER good looking was when he played Cedric Diggory in the HP movies?
Also, am I the only person who enjoyed the movie more than the book?

Seriously, the movie made it better. I will watch the second one, but I refuse to read any further in the series. No matter how many times people tell me "Oh, the third one's better, the fourth one's amazing..", I can't say it enough.

Meyer's writing sucks.

To me, any thing after the first book is her scrambling to keep her hold on her money and fame that sprouted up somehow from teen girls and silly vampire addicts who think it's amazing.

It's not just Stephanie Meyer, though. This is the issue. J. K. Rowling has also somehow gained an insane amount of popularity through her mediocre scribblings about wizards and magic. Her idea was brilliant in my opinion, but her writing was shotty.

All of these recent writers are feeding off each other, producing the same drivel as the author previous.

It almost disgusts me to see all these people fangirling over such boring stories.

I won't deny rushing to get Deathly Hallows on release night. With the lack of any good literature out there, it's natural for me to cling to something remotely in the 'good read' area. As I have done currently with Dan Brown. Repetitive, but it passes the time.

I hate how teenage, and even some adolescent, girls have become nowadays. I hate how I used to be like them. Even more, I hate how people who can't write think that they actually can.

This is why children of today are so stupid. Everyone considers authors like the aforementioned amazing and good quality literature.

What ever happened to Robert Lynn Aspirin? Isaac Asimov, Terry Brooks, Pratchett and Goodkind, C.J. Cherryh, Orson Scott Card....

What ever happened to intelligence in children?

We consider ourselves well-learned but, when you look at what's around you, what are you comparing yourself to? The girl who sits across from you in class? The person in the grade below you? The kids in the 'special class'?

We should be comparing ourselves to University graduates who have Masters Degrees or something. We should be striving to be as high as we can, not just above the person right below us.


Seriously people, read something that challenges your intelligence. Something with a word bigger than "Vampire" or "Wingardium Leviosa".