:D I've kept my costume sekrit for this long...

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Leave comments! <3 I love hearing from people.

Happy Hallowe'en!

Mom is officially the coolest person ever. (  Look what she bought me! )

asdfghjkl;; I love her. She knows me so well. She also gave me the Vulcan Salute when she handed it to me. Mom = WIN.

Hallowe'en costume is turning out well :3 still can't find that wig though D:

Supernatural tonight! :D Excitement...

<3!

EDIT: I just zoomed in on that pic of me, and holy crap I look so sick. Fuck'n pasty skin and raccoon eyes...This is what midterms in college, and a job do to you xD

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What's everyone dressing up as?

rosivan and littlewolfstar, you guys are going to love my costume. It's..still in the stages of planning, but all I need is a teeny bit of material and to find my wig and...you will be happy :D I'll do a photoshoot for you guys too <3

Until Hallowe'en!

♥

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
So I love you because I know no other way

than this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.

- excerpt of Love sonnet XVII, Pablo Neruda

I watched Patch Adams with April, Sunday night, and loved the poem.

Sorry for not updating?

Interesting news: I found out all of my favourite cosplayers on DA are German lesbians..with each other...LOL

Two cosplay mainly as Riku and Sora, and two as Axel and Roxas. They almost always find couple-cosplays and pull them off flawlessly. Then there's a Namine and Demyx that I found (btw they're ALL friends with each other, too...) and it's just awesome.

Is that the secret to amazing cosplay? Learn German and become a lesbian? lmao.

Anyone have an RF modulator they have kicking around that they'd like to give me? I can't seem to find any under 20$ around here... There those things that you can attach to older TVs from the cable connection, so you can hook up a newer VCR or DVD player by the RCA cables.....anyone? Bueller?

Oh well...

Anyone got some nice Dean/Castiel recs? Sulu/Chekov? Kirk/McCoy? *sigh* I've done a good job staying away from fanfiction this long due to the insane amount of badfic. Seems books like Twilight have given illiterate fans the ambition to write. I hate wading through crap to find a nice chunk of gold. There's been very few goodfic about....and the damned authors who write it NEVER UPDATE (yes, this means you, rosivan ).

This cute, love post has turned into a rant post. Egads.


It's fucking freezing here. 4°C?! wtffff "feels like -2°C". STFU NO.

;_; Too cold for me.

Oh well...

Night!

Many things have happened.

I saw Glee and refuse to miss an episode... lol it's that and Supernatural. Those are my shows now. And maybe Eastwick if I get into it.

My degu died last night..one of Rowan's pups. It was sad. I dug her grave with a spoon.

On the major upside though...I'm employed?

Yeah, weird, huh? A resume I gave out in May was kept and now they need employees and called asking if I still need work. Uh YEAH.

I start Tuesday :D Yay Greek food.

Oh and...Next year I'm gonna be a Veterinary Assistant. ...>>; Don't ask why.

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This is a very odd post.

Just finishing up my second week, and boy, is it tiring...

I'm up by 9:30 latest every morning, 6:30 on Tuesdays.

Mondays and Wednesdays I'm there from 10-6ish. I get sooo hungry D:

Good thing, I like one professor, two others are okay, but one's batshit lmao

Yeah, last Friday, I showed up for my 11-2 class, promptly at 11. Right when everyone else was cleaning up. Turns out, Thursday, they changed the schedule.

wtf? It's now from 9-12. It'd be nice if I had any notice...And Margaret had the nerve to be pissy with me. She's nuts.

Anyhoozle, Supernatural airs its second episode of Season 5 tonight. So damn excited. >D Castielllll..<3

Ehh, well..so much for an update? lol....


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:D

Hallo Update.

Started College today. Epicness. Profs are awesome. Tomorrow's my first full day and boy is it full.

11-2, 3 hours of drawing. 3-6, 3 hours of painting. Just an hour break in between lmao.

I got [Unknown LJ tag]'s gift in the mail today. Lots of goodies! Craploads of pencils and pencil crayons, and pastels and rubber stamps. I'm in glee xD

I also sailed some new fandom ships. Hate me if you wish D:

Castiel/Dean and Sulu/Chekov. I can't help it ;___; Just Castiel on his own makes me fangirl. And when I watched Star Trek 2009, I immediately loved Chekov. Something about the actual Russian actor...rofl. Oh yeah, Mischa Collins (Castiel) is Russian-ish too...So's Evgeni Plushenko (fave figure skater)...Think I have a trend?

Anyways, Life is great 8D Getting up at 8am is a bit of a putoff though. Oh well! :D

This is good and bad. More so something that I don't quite know how to take.

I was told today (Aug.5) that I would be leaving Friday (Aug.7) to spend a week in Montreal until next Saturday (Aug.15), where I will be dropped off in Kingston to go camping with my family until the Monday (Aug.17).

For seven days I will be in another province, where I will have Internet, and for three, I will be in a campground with none. All of this, though, without Gary (assuming his mother doesn't let him camp, otherwise it will only be a week..:D). Now, I've gone a couple of days without him, surviving on the net. I've also braved through nearly three days of him away on a canoe trip with no communication whatsoever.

I can do this. I think?

I'll be staying with family I barely care to know, although they're nice. I'm not comfortable 'hanging out' with these people...They don't know me, and I'm afraid they'll expect me to keep up with witty banter, or for me to 'have fun' with them. My idea of fun is sitting on the couch alone, playing Pokemon, or reading a book. I don't want to be a total pest to them.

I'm still going to go, but I can't think ahead. I'll have to just take each day as it comes or I'll drive myself nuts. It's how I've learned to live with myself. Spontaneity is the first rule of my life.

Leaving for Montreal for a week, no prior planning whatsoever, starting tomorrow? Yeah, sure, why not. Never done it before. No parents, no friends, just a bratty sister whom I come to no manner of terms with.

Jeez, I'm going to be spending many late nights online...

@_@ At least I get to have my laptop...♥. Without it, I don't think I would go. It'll be the only thing keeping me from driving myself insane.

Well, I might update partway through the trip, but this is it for now.

Auf Wiedersehen, arrivederci, sayonara, adieu and see you all later.

<3

Pour les francophones qui lire ma agenda... en fait Je ne comprends pas qu'est-ce que j'écris. Ma français est...terrible. Alors...blah. Je vais bien s'amuser en Montreal.

J'espère...

EDIT: Through trial and error (and accidentally overdosing on T3s which resulted in me calling Poison Control), I have found out what is wrong. Not only is my wisdom tooth growing in, but I have a huge infection under one of my teeth which has been slowly pushing it up, 'cause it to be painful for me to close my mouth.

Mom took this wild guess and we went to the doctor for a prescription for antibiotics. I have so far been on them for nearly 24 hours. The pain has GREATLY lessened (no more tears! :D) and the infection is being pushed out into my cheek and under my tongue. That part sucks. Hurts to move my tongue at all ;_; Eating is difficult.

And my cheek is puffing up xD So I look like I have a cotton ball in my mouth.

But now we know what it is, and I'm on the road to recovery! Woohooo~!

Thanks, anyone who gave a damn and even bothered to read this <3


It hasn't even been 24 hours since the pain started.

My wisdom teeth are growing in (hurrah!) but they're apparently impacted, and on the left side of my mouth, I have two fairly recent root canals (1 top, 1 bottom). Impacted wisdom teeth and root canals don't exactly get along. The bottom right one has already broken skin and is coming through nicely, but Mr. Bottom-Left is not cooperating.

Since about 9 am yesterday morning, I have had nearly 200mg of codeine (in T3 format, of which 300something is max.dosage and anything above 500mg is lethal), 900mg of Acetaminophen (also in T3) and about 1000mg of Ibuprofen (APO-400s which are also anti-inflammatory). And this didn't help the pain.

The pain has maybe relented for about an hour through all of this, and it is excruciating.

I have had thousands of dollars of work done on my teeth (and I was perfectly conscious for those root canals), I've had violent tooth extractions from a stupid maxillofacial surgeon, all with maybe 2 needles of local anaesthetic each. Through all the pain I put myself through for not going to the dentist for years...All through that bullshit and I never once cried. I have winced, I have yelped, I have cried out in pain, but never have I cried.

When this pain hits, I'm reduced to doubling over in pain, and I can't stop crying.

It won't let me sleep. I got maybe 20 mins last night, and had an icepack against my face the entire time.

The worst part is, I can't get this fixed. We don't even have the money to pay our fucking phone bill right now. It's roughly 400$ per wisdom tooth, and I'm not covered by my parents' insurance anymore because of my age. Even if I was, I've already had close to 2000$ of work done in the beginning of this year, and their limit is 1,500.

Does anyone know what the hell I can do about this? Medicare/OHIP doesn't cover anything dental whatsoever, I don't get student insurance until I actually start classes in September, and even then they only cover 75% of wisdom teeth extraction.

The pain is almost making me nauseous. I'm scared if I let it run its course, it might crack or shatter the tooth that has the root canal, since it's hollow, y'know? And if that happens, I'm fucked.

Help? ;___;

I finally chose my courses/timetable! I'm so excited! Tuition's being taken care of. Orientation week starts Sept 8th, and classes start the 9th.

I have:

Monday

10:10 am-12:00 pm
DIGI 1300-01
INTRO TO DIGITAL RESOURCES - Klassen

2:10 pm-5:00 pm
DRAW 1354-03
FIGURE DRAWING - McQuay

Tuesday
8:10 am-10:00 am
DESN 1308-03
DRAWING/VARIETY OF MEDIA - Rodgers

Wednesday
11:10 am-2:00 pm
DESF 1302-03
DESIGN STUDIO - Klassen

3:10 pm-6:00 pm
DESF 1303-03
FINE ART STUDIO - McQuay

Thursday
9:10 am-11:00 am
DESF 1304-01
IDEAS & IMAGES - Lecture with Klassen

Friday
11:10 am-2:00 pm
DRAW 1308-03
3D DESIGN STUDIO - Jordan

xD Monday, Wednesday and Fridays I'm planning on lunch/working out with April :D It's gonna be great. I ony need to purchase one book, for the lecture, and someone I know was in it last year and it selling it to me cheap..:DD

I'm very excited :P I get off on Tuesday and Thursday very early. 2 hour classes and then I'm home all day rofl.

oh! July 15th. Harry Potter. Half Blood Prince. Me, Gary. DRESSING UP...:D

No specific characters just 'cause it'll be too hard in such a short time. I can make House ties, and we have some dressy clothes for a pseudo school uniform. I'm stuck between Ravenclaw/Slytherin for me and Gryffindor/Ravenclaw for Gary.

Anyone have any suggestions? I'll need them quick because I need to get the fabric for the ties. I'll just paint the stripes on with acrylic. So, Red, Blue or Green? :P

<33! Anyone who wants to go with us, let me know! I'll make you a tie too :D

I really feel like drawing. Remus/Sirius anyway. I know it'll get me a shitload of hits on DA...if I rape-tag it."remus siruis marauders mwpp padfoot moony werewolf naruto boobs yaoi snape" lmfao Whaddaya think?

And anyone on here got requests? It's easier for me to draw if I have something in mind.

<3 Happy Canada Day, everyone. Even those of you who are American :P Because up here, we use the excuse of Independence Day to set of more fireworks and get drunk again.

Then again, Friday and Saturday are also a great excuse.

Ta-ta~

:D Sorry it's been forever.

Things are awesome, I'm going to college fo'sho in September. It's fucking exciting.

So exciting, I made a new mood theme featuring *Chibi-Rinku"'s art. :D It's Link!

Also made this:



:D

I should be in bed D:

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I've wanted to rant about this for quite a while.

My sister is quite the skank.

Consider this: I try to be a decent role model. I get good enough grades to scrape by with Honour Role every semester or so, I keep more than decent friends, I have a great boyfriend, no one I associate with has abused drugs or alcohol ('cept for a few friendly drinks..:D), et cetera.

Now, I don't know how she gets it in her head to have sex before she's even 16, and then less than a month later, again with a completely different boy.

Since Gary and I have been together (April 16, 2008 for you just tuning in), She has been with four boys and attempted relationships with many others.

There's a pattern, too.

Josh was numero Uno. He lasted maybe 6 months (which I was sort of happy about, since she was actually trying.) Oh, but then she started getting friendly with her bandmate David. All of a sudden, Josh wasn't so 'fun' and 'caring' anymore. She dumped him on his Prom night, still insisted on going with him (which he paid for), then proceeded to get with David within the week.

Numero Dos, David, is a good kid. Studied hard, etc, so I liked him too. He did a hell of a lot during the summer, so he didn't have a lot of spare time. Well, this wasn't good enough for her, so she started getting friendly with his best friends Henry and Sid. She dumped David and started getting really close to Sid but then he was all "LOL bros b4 hos", so, 'heartbroken' she flitted between classmates, flirting where and when she could get away with it.

Then she met Matthew in the school band and like a suction cup, she was on him. Except right after she met him, she went on a trip to Italy. Where she met *gasp* numero Quatro! (yes, in spanish, too.)

This was in November.

She started dating Matthew in December, although she got extremely close to Will in Italy. So she spent three months with Matthew and claimed he was "the One" (echoes from Senors Uno and Dos)

She slept with him, broke up with him because "we don't share the same ideas anymore" then started sleeping with Will. They decided not to make it official for a while because then it would be 'skanky'. Well, being fuck-buddies at 16 is a bit worse than that, kiddo.

So now they're one happy month together, and you know what they're talking about?

Kids.

She wants 3, and he's all for it, and they've named them. In all her 'creative writing', she goes by the pseudonym "Amanda Fortier". Oh, how witty.

He's drawn pictures of her pregnant for fuck's sake. They've talked in detail about their wedding.

I've made comments about how premature this is, and now she's going on about how I'm 'rude'. Will's jumped the bandwagon on "Jessica's an introverted dumbfuck" and "we hate her lol".

I'm just waiting for her to find her next victim before saying "I told you so".

By the way, I poked holes in her condoms, but then I thought that was wayyy to cruel and I'd have to live with that guilt, so I just tossed them instead. Hope she cries and whines.

See? I do have a heart.

Oh and before I get jumped for the "omg you're promoting unsafe sex somehow", nah, I'm not. I had a talk with her when I found out she was sleeping with Matt, and told her if she fucked up somehow, I'll mess up things more for her.

Ahh, I love being the bitch of an Older Sister. The hate is so rewarding sometimes.

Isn't it friggin adorable?!

:DD I love it!

I'm so happyyyyy right now... :3

Never thought I'd be in love for this long with anyone... Never thought he'd be the one I'd be happy to spend forever with.

And asdfghjkl;; look at us! We're flourishingggg~ xD

I feel retarded D:

Everything in my body hurts from track ._. My entire back and abs ache when I cough/sneeze/anything.

Owwwww...

I love everyone right now :D I have crackers and I love them too. :D

Anyone who hasn't, check out my Deviant art right NAO! <33 Right Hurr!

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Hope everyone's lovely.

And why the hell doesn't anyone comment anymore? Lazy bitches.

<3! :D

How are you alll?

<3

that's all I can really put...tonight's been fun. :D

One year...it's one thing to say it, but another to try and imagine the number of days, and the number of adventures we've had in such a period of time.

I've made up my mind and nobody's going to be able to change it.

I love this man more than anything. More than any 'fad' I've been into before, more than any show or band I've fangirled over, more than my own well-being, which I only really consider so I can ensure I'll always be there for him...

To think, a year ago I was a foolish girl with foolish dreams, wanting to escape so I could 'find myself'.

Little did I know that what I was looking for was right beside me.

Gary, I love you so much. I'll never be able to thank you enough for falling in love with me. I don't know what I ever did to deserve you, but I'm so happy for it.

..I've already finished the first 50 letters ._.;; I just zoomed through them all, giggling and nearly in tears for the most part.

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Gah, I'm too tired to think of anything else to write.

Happy Anniversary, love.

Cheers to many more.

How the hell did one year pass by so quickly?

Gonna say an early "Happy Anniversary, darling", to mr_hunk <333 24 hours, early, but oh well.

Love you!!

:D

In other news, I haven't updated lately..D:

Track and field has started again and it's alright xD first meet is YorkU on the 25th. A Saturday. I know.

Also, our first canoe day is the 23rd, which I'm not too happy about because he's making us wear PFDs that have spiders all over them, and canoes that have spiders all IN them. And I just happened to choose a paddle with a crack in the neck, so I'll be getting splinters the whole time. Joy.

Two months left of school. Yay?

Two months left to pay 4000$ that I only have 1% of? Not Yay...

Gotta get my ass in gear...

But I'm not gonna get depressed about that now becaaauuusseee.it's gonna be our Anniversary soon :D and I'm fucking happy...

If he could barely stand a couple of months with the last one, and he's still "asdfghjkl;; happy" with me..? Jeez, we're gonna last forever.

<3!

Cheers to the future!

For my beloved Katherine, who can take a bit of friendly racism. <3

Don't mind the crappiness of the text, I did it in MSPaint.

Don't do what I did, kids.

Never EVER eat chocolate that's been under your bed for two years.

I found a Hershey's Kiss from Christmas 2006, in a plastic bag with some school stuff in it (that's how I figured the date).

D: My stomach hates me nowwww.


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but it didn't look bad ;___;

Happy Birthday to meeeee

I saw a hawk outside today, ripping apart another bird.

Here!

So gorgeous..

Me, April and Kat hung out last night watching movies :D we also made sushi and it was so goooddd. Tamara and Cullen dropped by for some. Fun times!

I also got to meet Gary's sister Nerissa..who, it seemed, adored me..>>;

mmmm

No one's home right now..Amanda got driven to her friend's and the parents are out grocery shopping.

All alone D:

;___;

My heart beats.

Oh, how it beats.

With each thought of you it flutters, leaving me breathless. Like I've suddenly been doused with ice water.

I get similar feelings to my anxiety attacks. My heart thumps far too hard to be normal and my breath feels short and heavy. This time however, instead of panic, I'm dizzy with joy.

To think, for years I went unknowing. For years you watched me and I wasted my time living in my own fantasy world, being whimsical.

I never knew that your eyes were on me, rather than her. I never knew that it was me on your mind and in your dreams.

Already, in a mere month and a half...we will have been together for a year. A whole cycle of the seasons, and still you love me.

I couldn't believe how easy it was to speak to you that first day, when my heart was in my throat and my stomach was doing somersaults. But it was easy. We spoke, I fumbled with my words and acted stupid, but I relaxed when I noticed you did too.

It took me a couple of days to just hold my breath and ask you to hang out.

Those days at the Lake...They were the happiest I'd ever seen. I cried, we laughed, we talked and listened to each other. It was an instant connection.

That first week we were together..I was convinced I was dreaming.

Now, I know it's better than that.

Darling, I'm so happy with you. This whole time has just gotten better and better as we mature and grow closer to each other.

I can only hope to keep it this way. I have no doubts that our relationship will evolve, as we also will, but our emotions will remain steadfast.

I love you, and that will never change.

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